(((girlio)))

I've yelled that to myself more times than I could possibly count.

I have been in therapy for almost 30 years, with one T or another, trying to get through this baggage. Just the last couple of years is when I've finally talked about incest and the emotional/physical abuse from my brother. All of that's been swept under the rug by my family.

It took some time and a lot of stress for me to finally realize that I need space from my family. That's pretty new for me too. My parents aren't ever going to change, nor will my brother or sister. My uncles and aunt only remind me of sick things they let me do (encouraged me) when I was a little girl. All very dark memories that hurt. I think that it's best, for me, to take some space away from my family and pay attention to my daughters and myself....in hopes that I'll someday accept it and that these horrible memories won't haunt my daughters. That's a HUGE hope of mine!

Gentle hugs to you.....