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Old Apr 22, 2012, 12:50 AM
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Was in hosp in Dec and the dr told me they don't like to hospitalize DIDs because the environment is so tough for them with all the triggers. They only kept me 7 days because I was so freaked out (had gone in for a major depressive episode), begging to go home.

Needless to say that my most recient hospitalization (3/30-4/16), in a different place, was rather eventful once i stopped panicking and 'settled in' to the ward. Alters started really acting up/out. This plance had been chosen because of its rumored good treatment of DIDs and treating them in accordance to the DSM.
So,
Age 10 actually had at least 4 sharps confiscated from her and had injured numerous times on the ward.
Age 8 had 3 escape attempts (one having been successful for 3-5 minutes and ended with a walk around the interior courtyard).
Age 4 (at the end of the nearly successful escape) swapped in and wouldn't take the meds the nurse brought us in the hallway.
On 8's third attempt, she walked right into the same nurse who was coming in the door - who knowing what to expect now, took hold of the body and gently but firmly pushed us back away from the door. "Why do you want to leave us?" she kept saying.
Several ages swapped in when in trouble for one thing or another (like getting another sharp confiscated after being told "I was testing you. How can I trust you?" by a different nurse. 8 swapped in an wrote out an apology, then dropped it in front of her and ran. The nurse came over with it and wanted us to read it to her, which 8 wouldn't do. 8 also tried to destroy the note, but the nurse took it back.
One alter kept hiding meds and taking them when she wanted, vs. when they were given.
I am a person who follows rules - usually to the letter. But in the ward, it is a totally different story. Same was true about sharps back in Dec. If there's a will, there's a way. Why is that not working for me off the ward?

I am really lucky this place treated me well. When I had system lockdowns, the staff talked me through them or even moved my arms to take meds or move the body. When I was put on watch (for harm) and had to stay in the day room all day, they were still nice to me. With the escapes, they put up a sign that said "escape risk severe" so that staff would actually close the doors behind them and watch that no foot was slipping through to hold the door open
I wish they hadn't kept me 18 days - there was no need :/ but a new dr came on halfway through and wanted to do med changes (which I'm not sure I like), so she kept postponing my discharge date. This is the first time the DID dx has been written down - until now it has always simply been listed as 'anxiety' because "once you're given a dx, it is hard to remove it" and "it could potentiall cause you problems down the road". But now it is official, direct from the hospital, for better or worse.
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