(((geez)))),

Oh, I know about the feelings of doubt, I have them too and I too get discouraged to be honest with you. I am still struggling with finding a sense of direction myself. And I still feel lost and often overwhelmed. But I AM seeing that I have made progress so I just try to remind myself to be patient and keep moving forward in therapy.

What impresses me the most about you geez is that you found things you like to do and you HAVE gotten in touch with your emotions enough for that progress to take place. Never loose sight of that geez. You have to know that it is ok to progress and allow yourself to keep doing things you enjoy. I think that is a challenge because your husband doesnt get that. As you said, he just wants you to be the old complient self. Well, your are not anymore, you have made genuine progress.

While this new T (knows her stuff) you have to make sure she sees the progress you have made geez. She needs to help you defend that and continue to progress. And if you need her to meet with your husband and explain to him that he needs to support you and that doesn't include you sitting at home waiting on him and being stagnent.

Geez, please don't appologize about the rant, that is the old you, appologizing for having feelings. You have every right to have feelings geez, and I think it is wonderful that you are progressing to a point where you are expressing them, never appologize for that. And make up your mind right now that you are not going backwards, you have a lot of time invested in this outgoing part of you, THAT HAS TO CONTINUE TO BE NURTURED AND DEVELOPED.

While this new T is experienced in working with PTSD patients, it is important she just don't get into her routine in treatment. Sometimes this can happen and it is up to you to make sure this T KNOWS where you are at right now and that YOU HAVE MADE A LOT OF PROGRESS.

It sounded to me like your biggest difficulty is that your husband is not progressing with you and making efforts to venture out as well. Honestly?, I think he is a bit depressed and needs some help himself. This is something you need to discuss with this new T.

I don't know if you have new things coming forward to sort out or not. OR, if your main difficulty is feeling like you have to hold back on your progress.

What do YOU think?

Open Eyes