Hi Spirit, thank you for your kind words on both of my posts.

I have no intention of staying with him for the kids, just long enough to help him on his way to dealing with his issues. In the meantime, I have to decide what I want, if I believe he is capable of loving me the way I deserve to be. I am creating a new life for myself, financially, and otherwise, knowing that there may come a time in the near future when I need to walk away. I have to make sure I am able to look after my boys on my own if the need arises.

I come from a single parent Mother who never remarried, and only had one boyfriend for a few years. I have no fear of being alone, nor do I "need" a man in my life. I didn't get married until I was 31, and actually preferred being single. But, I married my husband because I thought I had found true love. It's a hard thing to deal with when you realize it wasn't "true" after all. None the less, love isn't a switch you can turn off and on either, I still love him, in spite of what's happened.

Thanks again for your words of comfort.

wounded1