Hey. I'm new here. I'm 18 years old i hate my life. I just feel like killing myself everyday. My parents financial problems are causing them to fight. Mum wants to leave my dad and it happens everyday. Everyday there's a new story. If it's not my mum it's my dad otherwise my siblings and i fight . It's just unbearable. I'm in my last year in school. I was supposed to be done but i repeated a year. I'm trying my best to achieve good marks so that i can become something and get my parents out of this slump... I get good marks but i always barely pass maths and i always crap because i try so hard.. I enjoy school and it used to take my mind off other things. I used to be jolly and happy and make jokes in school but nowadays i just feel like crap. I hardly talk and ppl are asking me what's wrong nowadays. I don't feel comfortable telling them cos i can't trust nobody. My "friends" are unbelievable. It's always me that should take the car to go out. I'm being used like crazy and i don't feel good at all. I can't trust nobody. I always thought i should give it time but things never change. It kills me that i can't help solve these problems. I'm sick of life. I've never tried drugs and i don't smoke but nowadays i feel like doing these vices cos it makes me feel better, for a while. Last year i had my first gf . She was always there for me to help me solve my problems but she dumped me in a week. Went out with me again and dumped me again. She then came to my school. We are now in the same class and i feel like crap. We hardly talk. And our once very strong friendship is ruined. I feel like nobody cares about me. I don't know what to do. Suicide is a sin in my religion and that's my last resort. But that seems like my only option now...