SarahMichelle: I remember you saying you liked Torey Hayden before. Can you send a message to skysblue, since she's in charge of the book group? That would probably be the best way; I don't know how to do links. Yes, I've emailed her photos and other stuff, and brought in my artwork and photos for her to see.

farmergirl: You'd make an excellent T. It's probably related to her being away and thinking about how she reminds me of Torey, the author. How much I like my T and don't want to lose her. How much she cares about me but still keeps her boundaries. How important she is to me as a real person. Maybe it's just too much for me to grasp and reading the book would put up a barrier between us? It would be about Torey and Sheila, not about my T and me holding hands and talking. I don't know if I trust this relationship because it was always transference and my pattern before, because I couldn't get what I wanted. It was out of reach with my other Ts. It's there with my T now. I don't have to fantasize. It's hard to feel this close to someone and to be touching them, physical and emotionally, and for her to touch me. It's the blanket of love I always wanted. When she goes away to foreign countries, I can't keep her safe. I want to know where she is.