Hello & Welcome, Argint Sekhem!
Several things are clear from your post.
- You have excellent self-awareness; you understand your view of life is coloured by emotions.
- You judge yourself far more harshly than situations and events warrant.
- You are deeply insecure in yourself and judge yourself unworthy of love; you have low self-esteem.
- You are irrationally tormented by the past.
- You are prone to "catastrophizing" social encounters.
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Originally Posted by Argint Sekhem
This self invoked feel of inferiority has sabotaged myself from actually living a 'life' for the past eight years.
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Eight years is a long time. Have you had the opportunity to explore your feelings and emotional reactions with a counsellor or therapist? Can you think of anything in your upbringing or in your life that possibly contributed to you viewing yourself so poorly?
Please keep posting.
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