Possible Trigger Warning.

I used to SH between the ages of 13 and 17 pretty consistently. I have depression and anxiety and have been in therapy working on issues through out that time.

This past month has been incredibly difficult, and for whatever reason last night I got really drunk, did some stupid things and ended the night by hurting myself for the first time in years. It wasn't that "bad" (aka deep) but there are a lot of marks... and Im going to be unable to wear shorts or a bathing suit for awhile. Im seriously so ashamed of myself, I can't even begin to tell you. I know better! I know better but I did anyways.

How do I start to move on, and forgive myself? How do I start the count over, how do I deal with all the people I know I just hurt? I feel awful. Just awful.