I can see how solid and attracting Ruben is for you in this visual, Alex. Also that you mom is an important part of your life, and how connected she is to your sister. That your older brother is pretty much adrift. You're good at showing these relationships.

I'm uneasy that your father, though removed from everyone, has his eye on you all. He still seems to have control of you somehow. Is that how you feel? I mean, besides feeling so alone and wanting to be with Ruben?

I wish there were somewhere you could go and feel Ruben's presence. What does the house in your drawing represent? If it's your old home, is there any chance you could visit it--if you wanted to? Just you?