Good Morning,

I initially started see the therapist for the ADD, but now I am working more towards depression, anxiety and Schizoid. I want to be social, but being Schizoid makes it very hard, then I get depressed and anxious when I cant have that. It really is a bad cycle. Its wreaking havoc on a relationship now, and has in the past on numerous occasions. If I break up with her, I would be depressed for a few days and then content. I would go back to my mostly solitary life and satisfy the Schizoid in me. But I want that gone, I want a wife, kids, I want to go play poker on Thursdays with the guys, go on Vacations with other couples. I just hope that I dont lose another great girl along the way. I am on Wellbutrin and Ativan so far and it seems to be working. I have actually been able to cry a bit the past few days, havent done that in @ 20 years, or more (I am 35). Didnt even cry when my Dad died in '97 so I could say this is progress? I was wondering how easy it is to deal with your problems as you move on over the years. I am going to post this discussion elsewhere. Thanks for your input, its greatly appreciated.

Mike