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Old Apr 22, 2012, 07:33 PM
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I have noticed my two biggest problems are worrying and over analyzing to the point that i make myself paranoid.

For instance I am on a final warning for quality at work. I made over the allowed amount of errors for this period. I have been at this job for 4 and a half years. I have no clue how to work anywhere else. I have also never been fired from a job. I have been in panic mode for the past two weeks on this. I almost turned in my two weeks notice as i do not want being terminated on my job application. However after talking to more rationale people they suggest that quitting is not the answer. I don't know 100 % if they will actually fire me or not they have worked with people in the past and everyone there loves me as a Co worker and does not want to see me leave. So why am I worrying about something that has not happend yet? Instead I should focus on the now and focus on the work instead of worrying myself to death which hinders my focus.

I hung out with some friends this weekend and spent the night with one of my guy friends. We ended up snuggling all night and let our hands travel. The next day instead of thinking about how relaxing it was to cuddle with someone and how good of a time I had with friends I start looking for negatives and hidden agendas. Even if the negatives turn out to be true its their problem and not mine. Why should I assume the worst in people? Why not hang somewhere in the middle and let the energies flow where they may?

I try hard to read minds when i can't and i always assume they are thinking negatively. I need to stop doing this.

I look at absolutely everything from every possible angle I can think of.
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