Hey Intherapy,
It sure does sound like you have a lot going on and understandably are overloaded. It also sounds like a lot of people are worried about you. I am not following what the ultimatum was by t #1.? I understand your situation. I too have had my t plan disrupted recently. My current t reduced me to 1X weekly because I guess I was too dependent. I am looking for a consult t.

Anyway I hope that you can find the amount of support you need. I would encourage you to check out other t without ending it with t #1 if possible until you truly know what is going to work the best. It sounds like you feel the world is caving in on you. That is a terrible spot to be. Please take one day at a time, maybe even 1 hour. The other thing I thought about it that, yes, it is nice to have older confidants but the great thing about a t is that they are held to confidentiality and can not tell friends and relatives things. Hang in there it sounds like help is coming in one way or another. Hugs KC