When I get done with the letter I'll share it on here! I'll make that a goal for tomorrow.

I am so sorry it seems as if that general psych unit did more damage. I don't know where your from, but our safe unit is Sheppard Pratt in Baltimore. I'm from Pa, so insurance coverage is off and on about whether they wish to cover it or not. They just get it there. Everybody was so convinced that I would be in that place for 90 days or more. But I ran through the program in 5 weeks, because my parts all felt safe and secure there and the staff just knew how to reinforce the feeling of safety.

This may trigger be safe

I got put in restraints there once, because I have a introject who likes to see me suffer, even if the only punishment he has is restraints. What he would do was act out (self harming) and then leave as soon as I was in the restraints. This place understood this about me, and as soon as he left, they took the restraints off. I was in them for maybe 3 minutes. Other places would be weary of letting me out of them for the next 24 hours, because it could happen again, then they would step me down to a seclusion room, etc. Which would just traumatize me more. Which is exactly what an introject wants. But this place wasn't going to give the introject his way. It really helped because after about two times this introject suddenly realized he couldn't hurt me this way anymore and he gave up, I had a falling out with him and I learned to work with him, instead of against him. We still have our moments. It was just such a big difference in the way they treated me.