I don't even know which smily face to put in front. I feel so many different emotions at this moment. I am overwhelmed with how I feel.
I am disabled and seem to get worse daily.. well yesterday was a total loss, as by 10am I was down with a migraine I slept until 5 am this morning. not all the way through but never awake for too long a time.
Today I woke up feeling like I could do it all (mentally anyhow) I know I have my limits but I constantly push and push and push myself and that is where I am now. It is 4pm and I have to think about starting dinner soon and I havent done 1/4 of what I had hoped to do today.............
I am so frustrated that I am having a really hard time controlling my anger. I am trying to move some things in my computer room in order to put in a dresser/desk along the one wall. I started moving some stuff and tied up the garbage and felt so exhausted that I just sat here and cried. I refuse to ask my hubby to do it, stubborn me I guess, still wanting to do it all by myself. But now I sit here crying like a friggin' baby. I am so tired and so angry with myself. I can't stand the mess my house is, and there is so much to do and I just can't. I managed to get laundry done and folded but I still have to put it away, I have to finish cleaning the kitchen so I can make dinner, I have to get this stuff out of computer room to make room for dresser, the clean the area it will go and then help hubby get it in here (which I pray is possible) it isn't a small thing. Then I have to figure out where everything is going to go..........I am at my end here and don't know how to stop it.... any ideas, taking a deep breath has not helped.....