My drinking has now gotten back to pre liquor store levels. I finished a fifth of Trave Amaretto last night. Every day, I like to have coffee with amaretto in it. I killed the triple sec, and the other liqueurs. I just have so much **** going on right now. I have a 3" deep hole in my stomach, and it hurts a lot. Thaddeus keeps coming back, reminding me of our last drunken encounter, where I shot him twice. He tells me to start stealing bottles of liqueurs. It reminds me of this:

Know me broken by my master
Teach thee on child of love hereafter

And this:
Into the flood again
Same old trip it was back then
So I made a big mistake
Try to see it once my way

I haven't ventured back into the drug world yet. But it's only a matter of time.