Living Well,

I have treatment-resistant depression. The best I've ever felt is moderate depression, but I slip into severe depression 2-3 times per year. I still take anti-depressants, sleep meds (to help me fall asleep and prevent nightmares from waking me), as well as a few physical health medications.

I've been working in therapy for 30 years or so (though with different T's). My newest T and I have uncovered some very dark memories that have haunted me all of my life...so that's certainly an improvement. I am stuck in a common female mentality though, in blaming myself for traumas that happened to me as a little girl. I'm still unable (or unwilling?) to blame those who were technically responsible for my upbringing.

I do hate depression. Wish that I could get a break from the darkness someday ~ but that feels pretty unlikely to me. Unfortunately, I do have a history of brain injuries which are known to have a depressive effect on sufferers as well.

Very best wishes to you!