*Sigh* today is my one year anniversary of my rape and I feel awful! I woke up crying earlier in the night and just want to hide away. My fiance' has been trying to comfort me for the past couple of days but nothing helps. I just want to cry and hide away. I have a meeting with my community support worker and I don't know what is going to happen. I have a feeling I'll be thrown in the psych hospital along with my fiance' for our SU pact we made but I'm not sure. I honestly feel like dying and that it wouldn't be a bad thing. I don't know I just feel sad and hopeless and upset! Why would anyone do something like this to another human being? I don't get it!