I'm mad at what you said. And I'm hurt you didn't listen to my view. I'm glad it's 1.5weeks until I have to look at you or talk to you again. There will be no phone coaching this week. Right now I'm not even sure I can go back at all.

On another note. I think I really need to talk to someone. I just can't face you. Something's not right. This has never been this intense. I'm going from one extreme ( being actively suicidal ) to another extreme ( so happy/on top of the world. Can't stop laughing and smiling) and then back. Within minutes. Today has beena roller coaster. Within 3hrs in class it would have changed 20 times. This is not normal. I don't know what to do. I feel out of control - but it's different to usual. I don't know how to cope. I'm really scared. But you are the only person I trust enough to explain this too. But you really hurt me today. I don't know what to do.
I'm really scared.