Sannah: No, I don't have a therapist yet. I need to find one paid for by my insurance (and those are rare to find) plus it took me a very long time to gather the courage to phone one. But I finally did call and I may be getting a therapist by May (there is some screening needed to determine first that I really need therapy).

Jenluv: Well, once I started they kept coming approx. once in every three weeks. Then I attempted sui, started taking sertraline and the urges disappeared. That was two months ago. The setraline is working great (dx F32.1) and I thought the si urges were just another product of depression until they came back a week ago.

Now I keep thinking whether the si is another problem, separate from the depression? Because I don't think I am in that horrible place anymore where they were needed. I So why have they come back? So many questions.