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Originally Posted by Roadie
I can see how solid and attracting Ruben is for you in this visual, Alex. Also that you mom is an important part of your life, and how connected she is to your sister. That your older brother is pretty much adrift. You're good at showing these relationships.
I'm uneasy that your father, though removed from everyone, has his eye on you all. He still seems to have control of you somehow. Is that how you feel? I mean, besides feeling so alone and wanting to be with Ruben?
I wish there were somewhere you could go and feel Ruben's presence. What does the house in your drawing represent? If it's your old home, is there any chance you could visit it--if you wanted to? Just you?
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I wish I was more connected to my mother but it never really was that way, I had my brother, my sister was always the closest to her and my older brother has been isolating from everyone for years already. It feels like now I have noone anymore.
My father is in jail... It turned out to look like an eye by accident but it still feels like he has control over us even though he's in jail.
The picture is not a house... It's more like the night or outer space.
When I want to be more connected to my brother I go to his room, lye on his bed, touch his stuff.. It helps sometimes, sometimes it just hurts.
If it were easier I'd chose to be with Ruben in a heartbeat... but nothing is ever simple
My older brother is 17 and my sister is 12.