Hi NEC, I'm interested in your story.
Do you really "go hard" when you are not depressed or does the depression just make everything feel too hard when you hit that point?
How long do you crash for? How many cycles have you had in the past 15 years?
How's your diet and exercise? Do you find that helps at all?
Are you on meds or do you take them in the dark times?
Do you push yourself to exhaustion at times well or unwell?
You don't have to answer any of that... I spose I'm just a little intrigued by that 15mth cycle you have going on, how long the depression lasts and how deep it goes.
Cheers,
Jade