Junerain - Thank you for the very kind words. Growing up, I was always told by teachers that I had a great future ahead of me. I did well in school and was told that that would overcome the limitations I felt psychologically. Now, at age 59, I accept that my limitations were more handicapping than I had even feared. It's good, in a way, that I didn't know that sooner. I kept trying for things that I thought would work out. That seems to count for a lot with my PCP doctor. He keeps saying that he thinks I have tried very hard to avoid SSDI. I tell him that he believes in my claim more than I do. I hope he has given me sound advice. I can't believe that he would encourage me to do something foolish. Since 2003, I have been encouraged to apply, by, among others, a counselor at Division of Vocational Rehab. She told me to apply, get my benefits, and then try to work part time if I wanted to. Now, suddenly I'm crying and I don't know why.