Dear T,

I'm scared about tomorrow. I don't want to start processing the deaths yet; especially when I have to wait 16 days to see you again. I really am glad you are having your reconstruction surgery so your cancer ordeal will come to an end, but having to go through this without you for 2.5 weeks is an overwhelming thought.

I don't want to email you while you're out because I want you to focus on your recovery. I have a feeling it will be a harder recovery than you anticipate. Every medical procedure you've had since July has had some type of complication, so maybe I'm worried that it will be longer than 16 days.

Love,
Chopin