I never found the laxatives to be a helpful weight loss tool, except for psychological reasons. when I was 19/20 I abused them and messed up my system. I spent the next fifteen years with constipation and a colon that no longer worked. eventually I had to have my colon removed which was the. worst. surgery. I felt near death and wanted to die.

please find better ways to get to your ideal size or better yet, do you have a therapist? I think your thinking is very pro-ana. are you actually looking to get better? if so, this is the place to do it! if not, I think you're on the wrong site... I hope you're looking to get better--you're worth more than your size!