Kittyclaws

I can understand your misery very well.

Coming forward, to protect the innocence of others, often isn't seen or understood by those that supposedly love us. Instead, they crawl back into their protective shells and we are left alone & unprotected. It is a horrifying feeling ~ so disturbing!! I think that most other people can't relate, as they haven't been left to fight alone. They have the support of their families, and imagining otherwise is probably hard to do.

I often blame myself for speaking up, to protect my infant cousin (who was like a niece to me). Speaking up did no good for me emotionally. It hurt. But, I couldn't sit by and simply watch my abuser do the same with his daughter. I could not allow that to happen! Whether or not I liked it, my job was to stop the sick cycle occurring in my family. That was my motivation. I frequently reminded myself of that fact during the dark years, to give me the strength to keep on living.

Very sweet thoughts to you ~ you're in my hopes!