I feel overwhelmed like I can't deal with stuff anymore. I've been barely holding on with trying to be better but now that my boyfriend lost his job today, I feel like everything's falling apart. I just can't handle the stress. Sometimes I feel so tired of trying to live that I want it to be over but I'm not really suicidal it just crosses my mind sometimes. And with this bipolar med I'm on I am depressed but if I go down on the dose I get too hypomanic it's like there's no in between for me and there never will be. I hate all of this and just want it to go away