johnf22881-Just one more person that wants to support you as you make your choice for recovery. So glad to see you are going to the meeting. Reach out. Take the help offered. I remember sitting in meetings and when people would share their "drunkalogs" I would be salivating. I literally sat on my hands at times cause I wanted to drink. This will get better. One day at a time or 5 minutes if need be. You don't have to die from this disease. Please keep in touch here let us know how you are/how we can be of help to you. Peace