DBT might be a kinda gentle place to start. It is extremely challenging but I find it very rewarding. I feel it has put me back in the drivers seat of my life no matter how severe my symptoms are. There is a dbt group here that you could attend - it is not the same as doing a dbt course but it may introduce you to some concepts that change the way you look at things and give you tips on how to better manage things? If your meds are not affordable for you is there some way that you can make them affordable on a long term basis? What might you be prepared to sacrifice? So that you can enjoy good health all year round? Given that that is, what you have expressed you want. Maybe see if you are eligible for a DBT course in your area? That would provide intense support and guidance.