...sometimes things don't go to plan, sometimes things go according to an alternative plan.

where do all these plans come from?

there, just now, is an excellent example of a question that I choose to ignore for now and perhaps for all time...

not to me...not right now..does the answer matter...and because an answer will only free up the mind for another question.

I want to put a stop to this incessant questioning

this I am grateful for...this opportunity to explore beyond the limits that my myriad illnesses force upon me.

I can only take so much from the mental expanse provided me...it seems an infinite supply of possibilities avail themselves to me daily by the minute and forever and there is no way to switch it off!

...or is there?

and the answer to this don't matter to me right now

and I have just contradicted myself....God bless me! faulty man! troubled human!