thank you so much for saying what i've been feeling. i have a three year old son and there are days when i can't get out of bed even for him. i've recently become a single parent so i have to get up. but sometimes the most i can do is change his diaper and give him something to eat. i don't want to get out of bed. i don't want to be around people. i feel totally isolated but don't know how to be around people right now. i feel like i'm forcing myself to be something i'm not. my parents, too, keep telling me to pray. i also belong to a 12 step program so they say the same thing. it's my faith that's lacking. but i don't know what to do. it hurts and i'm paralyzed. but the rational/"sane" side knows what to do. it won't communicate properly with the other side. on medication. seeing a therapist. now my family thinks that maybe i should go to an inpatient mental facility. i'm embarrassed about that. feels like the ultimate in defeat. but maybe that would be good. i don't know. i want to cry, rage, scream, explode, and just rock back and forth. i hate this and like you, i feel like i've been doing what i need to do but it'snot helping. at least i know i'm not alone. of course, that means that someone else is going through it too. and that's not a fun thing. hugs to you.