j, i used to have a lot of depression before going on meds and repeatedly failed holding onto sobriety. i kept saying my depression would be better tomorrow-NOT-and didn't contact my doc. it felt ike i was self sabotaging success. and that was exactly what i was doing. i chose to believe i really couldn't stay sober. i needed to learn to reach out before i drank with my doc, AA, and if i had know about pc-tho wasn't invented yet-i would have discussed what was going on with me here. i put up my own barriers.
r u comfortable talking about what led up to your drinking? we'd like to support you.
i'm glad u posted what happened. that is a start, j.