Hi Everyone,
Thank you for your encouragement and understanding.
I am aware of the odds of my actually becoming that refined, self assured and intellegent person. But I can do my own version of it.

It's a whole new strange world sometimes when I go to a client's house to clean. Although we all live in the same city-we all have such different lives.
I look at their photographs and when the family is in the house I can see how they interact with one another. Sometimes when this happens as I watch or see a photograph- I can feel my head getting all stuffy and hot because I become so enraged that I didn't have that.
A picture of a mother looking at her daughter lovingly or the family with their grandparents there or just hearing how they talk with one another-the respect given-no theatrics. A father actually engaging in a conversation with his kids...Stupid crap these people take for granted that I never had.
So, I get to see what I missed out on.
Well-maybe I can earn some of it for myself if I work hard enough. Just a tiny little taste of it.