But how do you earn that? How do you earn your childhood back? How do you earn a mother looking at you lovingly and stroking your bangs out of your eyes? How do you earn a father just talking to you for more then two sentences and actually acting like he wants to be involved in your life instead of skimming around it where he has to because he's married to your mother?
How do I earn respect from a mother who's idea of a "formal dinner" conversation is to talk about my sister's dildo or my bra/breast size or humiliating my other sister by telling preferred to be forgotten stories being told AGAIN to a bunch of people we'd really not have hear.
How do you earn that? How do you earn not having to do a stinkin' song and dance just to get one morsel of positive attention?
You don't earn it-it's something that should be given to you. So how do I recouperate from not having it? How do I earn it? I guess all I can do is compensate for not having it.

GRRRRRRRRRR