((((Calista))) my father died around easter. I always get sick when the flowers come up. I have a lot of rage too. I'm sooo sorry you are hurting. Amity that is a lovely link. Calista, i also agree with Amity. Don't hate yourself. Hate the one/s who abused you. I so relate. When my dad died when i was nine my mom started dating a kiddie rapist. You can guess what happened next. I hate too. I hate liars and hypocrites ( dont know how to spell it though) . I hate everyone who condones assault and abuse and looks the other
way. Anger is good. It is a step in the healing process. You are getting better. Just dont misdirect it at yourself. Praying for you.