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This happens mostly when having to be or work around people. But not just being around people like before I go out or contemplating getting back to what’s expect of me. At the moment I am unemployed. It’s hard to get over this feeling and allow myself to be comfortable/ able to apply to a place. Let alone think of an interview or working at that place. This is like over fearing simple things and sometimes this can get so stupid. I do have a lot of me time/ working on activities. However it doesn't really make much difference for me personally to lessen this feeling. I think it's because I am not in a stable place right now. So I am over worrying and stressed and that probably won’t change until I can get myself back to feeling stable. If that makes sense. However it’s no win because I need to try having less of this feeling to be able to get myself in better place. It’s stupid because I can overcome walking down a street by myself and travelling by myself, this was big deal as I was in an accident. Yet I can’t even just work at a place without coming across nervous or something not right. People would always pick up on this and I couldn’t help but let it show. I would just break down in tears most of time while working. I would hide in store room or find reason to go back there so I could cry and hope no one would notice. But I was on shop floor most of time I only would hide when I was about to cry because I couldn't stop myself at that point from crying. All because this feeling got too much. People of course couldn’t get that I could overcome one thing by getting myself to work, so they thought that I was fine but they didn’t stop to think what was going on in my head or what I was really feeling. Also they then couldn’t understand really my fear of being around other people in work situation. If that makes sense as well. Just some more comments about this fear type feeling I have.
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