Rainbow8, this just isn't true or fair to your T. Please make a list of all the ways that you believe demonstrate that she cares about you. Then make a list of those which you believe demonstrate that she doesn't care. I've read many, many of your posts - I'd be willing to bet that the former list exponentially beats the latter! It's unhealthy for someone to do something for someone (even if it's someone he/she cares a lot about) that they feel uncomfortable with for whatever reason just because the other person wants them. Were your T force herself to read the book, she'd end up feeling resentful toward you perhaps, angry at herself for having agreed and this might come through in your interactions. I do think that this is "grist for the mill" and you should show your T much of what you've written here and are thinking. One of the only times that my current T has gotten visibly annoyed with me is when I questioned her love and caring because she wasn't doing something I wanted her to. She was insulted that I even suggested this and I learned a lot from this. Please let it go for your own sake (and if I could only take this advice myself on things in my own life!).