You know the expression "lull before the storm"?! I'm wondering if that is what I am kinda feeling right now. Ok, so I have been on 'autopilot' for much of the past 3 months but I have felt emotions during this time. Right now though I don't and can't feel ANYTHING. It's like I don't care about what is going on, and even if I think about the crap my ex is putting me through this week I just can't feel anything. My mother suggested it was my defenses 'sticking up for me' but I now I think that as things go along the storm will hit hard and without warning... Yes I am totally confused and I don't even know what I am rambling on about. I am just avoiding everything I should be doing as I can't be bothered doing it- tidying up, dishes, washing etc etc etc- and I guess I am avoiding going to bed, which I will probably put off til after at least some of the tidying has happened...
Sorry about the rambling, like I said I don't even know what I am on about, just letting my fingers type whatever they want!