I have been in 'raging' mode for almost 2 weeks now. Can't seem to settle myself down and when I get close something else happens that sets me off. Today I go pick up my meds from the pharmacy and last time I was there I made a scene. And I'm already at a boiling point when I woke up as if ready for battle. This is how the manic part of my disorder shows itself - not all happy and reckless - just deep down to the gut rage. It is so much harder to go from 10 to 1, than 1 to 10.