....I spend most of the day washing!

what?...unintended activities...and I did all this so peacefully it's amazing!

I am an alcoholic...

I planned not to be and yet I became....

the inner depths of understanding were incomplete it seems?
there was not enough
there will never be enough
...

so much to drink...provided by me I threw up my breakfast before I even made it to the bottleshop!

not a drop had hit me and I was tasting the succour of C2 H5 OH

..seriously, this permanently benevolent guest in my life

came calling again!

gripped and desirable and additionally given pause...I vomit on my dear bed.

holy crap it's all over!!...not my dear bed my comfort but it's minimalised!

the washing took many hours to coordinate and no food has entered my body.

ALCOHOL....saves me from itself ....how superordinary...

this cycle bereft!

this emotional cleft

this day gone by and left.