eastcoaster, thank you. I don't have to make that list. You know I don't. I am 100% sure that my T cares about me. I just miss her right now and it was about that, that I thought about reading One Child to her. I'm grasping at straws because of the intensity of my feelings about her. I'm in uncharted waters this time and trying to accept the way I feel, and not judge myself. It's hard.

Thanks, stopdog. I know the result wouldn't be what I want. It wasn't logical thinking on my part--about the book.