Lostmyway, can you talk about the thoughts in that email with T instead of having to email it to him, call him between sessions, etc.? That's great your T responded and is open to discussing this topic. I'm wondering if the between session email and phone call are more about your need to connect than to express suicidal thoughts? Maybe both. If your reaching out is to express the suicidal ideation with no plan, it seems that in session might work for that. My T encourages clients to express ideation. He says it helps relieve their anxiety and tension and they leave feeling better and less suicidal because they were able to discuss it. He also makes those who discuss suicidal ideation with him contract for safety. If he thinks it is more than ideation and they have a plan, he will call the hospital. He said many clients are grateful for someone who will listen to and talk about their ideation.

Good luck at your session.