is feeling good scary?? YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES Y YES YES YES YES YES YES. My T will ask me, "and didn't that feel good?" and I will SCREAM at him, "I TOLD YOU NOT TO ASK ME THAT!!!" like it'll jinx things. because usually I can keep good things going UNTIL I NOTICE IT - once I notice it, it's over. like juggling or something. so es, absolutely yes. it's the evil eye - probably just my mother's evil eye, but still! ETA: when I was taking DBT, I learned that "deserve" is not even in my vocabulary in a good way. like I deserve crummy stuff to happen, but I would never say, I deserve a nice home.