thank you hillybunny ((((hillybunny))))

I am a bit calmer after a good cry. It always works out that way. I mean it wouldnt be so bad if I had of had some notice, but I dont. The house is destroyed because i just havent been able to keep up with housework.

but maybe that will work to my benefit. I mean they certainly cant reject me based on housework can they?

I will be sitting as close to the door as possible. Im probably completely off my rocker (actually, i know im off my rocker - thank god for a sense of humor) and he probably is harmless I just (and dont any men take this personally) have a huge issue with men in positions of power and the thought of being interrogated by a man about this in my messy house is just frightening.

I am getting by though. I should probably try and rest a couple of hours so I may not get back until after this afternoon but who knows, if I cant sleep I am going to try and at least do other things.

It just seems like its getting worse, not better