Suspicion about the kinds of things that were done is secret that caused the hurt between my partner and myself two years ago.

If what you are doing is hidden then you know what you are doing is wrong. I made it clear it was not acceptable. He apologized ...admitted it was wrong and said it would not happen again, but a lot of emotional damage had been done.

So...how to you "make" yourself ...will yourself ... to feel safe??

My biggest problem is the broken trust. If a person wants to hide something they can. You never really know if someone is being honest. That comes with faith and trust...which at one time was broken...thus fear and all the other emotions return. From time to time my head wonders to a place where I don't want it to be. Even on a good day I find myself holding back....protecting myself.

And why do I end up feeling like I have to fix myself!!