I just feel so empty and alone right now... I don't think I'll ever be really happy. I'm so lonely. I wish I had a girlfriend, but I'm so awkward and uncomfortable around people I don't know well and I don't think anyone really understands me. I don't think I'll ever find love and someone who truly "gets" me.

It often makes me angry to see happy people or couples. They make me jealous. But right now I just feel numb.
I'm too empty to live, but not desperate enough to die... Stuck in this lonely, boring, aimless, lifeless existence forever.