Screenager, thank you for posting. I feel exactly, and I mean exactly, the way you do right now. If you ever want to talk about stuff, you can message me. Words cannot describe how lonely and empty my life is...I understand how you feel that no one can really "get you". It makes me sad, and I think about these things every day, just to think no one is really going to ever understand who I am, makes me wish there was a God. I don't know what happiness is, don't know that love exists, this life is pure torment. Sorry I can't bring you relief.