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Originally Posted by Rose Panachée
Perhaps this has been discussed in great detail and I am late to the party. I am sorry if I am repeating something that is completely obvious to everyone. This is new to me in my recovery.
I have really been struggling the past few weeks, ........
I just could not take one more second from outside influences that were triggering me, and I did not have the tools (I ran out), and that is what lead me to the "old" thoughts.
Does this happen to you? Is this cyclical? Two steps forward and a major step back?
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Oh, Rose, it's all new to me. It has been a lousy few weeks and every day seems to just pile on.
Two steps forwad and a major step back?? Seems to be the story of my life...no cyclical...but steady.
I'm pretty much worthless today.
What is "SI" that you referred to? Suicide? I'm even afraid of that....that I'd just mess myself up where someone else would have to take care of me and it would likely be the same people that drive me crazy now. THAT keeps me alive. My own fear a tool! Wow