Yes. Every time I have a 'good' mood or feel 'okay', I feel like I can't trust it. I feel like 'how can I be happy, my life sucks. I must be delusional. Maybe I'm manic.. what if I'm manic?!?'

It's a sad state of affairs. Oh, and in the end I always ruin it by putting pressure on myself to do too much - chores around the house, planning a future - because I IMMEDIATELY start feeling like a phony, like people will say 'she's smiling, see, she's not 'depressed'! Seems fine to ME! Pfft!'