I'm not sure if I should find another therapist or not. I think I need a second opinion. See, the thing is... I'm not sure if I'm going to get much out of therapy with the therapist I have now, but I've only seen her for a total of 2 sessions, so... maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm misjudging her. And maybe I'd be calling it quits too early. I don't know. But so far I'm finding it difficult to talk to her. I think some of this is simply me just having difficulty expressing myself. But some of it is just that my therapist is giving me vague answers to my questions. When I talk to her, I feel like I'm talking to a random person on the street, not a trained professional. I don't expect magic to take place, but I also expect some more specific answers to important questions.

For example I suggested that we come up with a specific plan to act on in case I relapse (dealing with a psychosis problem). I was scarred and I just wanted to know what options I have and just have something in place in case it happens again. She basically just said "call me". That's not much of a plan... It was very hard to ask about it in more depth too because the way she said it suggested that she didn't want to talk about it at that moment... I was frustrated. And I still am. I don't think she understands what I went through. I can't just "call her" and expect everything to be fine. If I go through that again, I'm going to need immediate treatment. Which means I need to think ahead of time what I am specifically to do if it happens again. I need a plan. It's very hard to carry on a phone conversation about what to do when you're going through very acute paranoid psychosis. Believe me, I've done it before and it sucked balls.

Not only is it hard to talk to her, but I just have to be honest: I feel no connection with her. I don't think we can relate to each other very well. You know how some relationships just "click" and others don't? Well, I don't feel that "click" with her.

Also she forgot my appointment. I only had 1 session with her, then on the 2nd session, she forgot about it. Turns out my appointment wasn't even on her calender. This kinda upset me. I'd understand if she forgot my name. I'd maybe even understand if she forgot an appointment. But she didn't even have my appointment on her calender... That's disappointing...

Finally, I don't know how common or uncommon it is for therapists to take notes, but the last therapist I had did, and it made me feel like she was taking the therapy seriously.

On the other hand she is nice. She also has a good sense of style in clothing too. But that's about it to be honest...

So, I don't know... Am I just judging too harshly? Am I judging too soon? Or do you think I should seek out another therapist? Cause I'm not really sure... If you do think I should get another one, how do I tell my current one that without it being too awkward?