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Old Apr 25, 2012, 08:52 PM
KeepGoing8 KeepGoing8 is offline
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Hello. I'm 27, been having severe depressive episodes since age 10 or so? I've never really understood what Mania was, felt like, or looked like, and I definitely pull harder, and longer into the depression breakdown lane...but this last month or so, I've come off Paxil and Percocet (kidney stone pain) and quit smoking cigarettes, and I have an uncontrollable rage, intensity, combativeness, and sex drive that's frankly scaring me and totally freaking out my husband. I saw a new T for the first time last week and he feels confident I am in a "temporary bipolar state" from the Paxil withdrawal, but these are feelings I recognize, mostly from childhood and high school years. And from further research, I also recognize a positive Mania that would always follow my childhood\adolescent depressive episodes: euphoria, awe at the beauty in the world, a heart with wings...and I remember missing that "high" when they started me on Prozac in college. Right now the Mania, if that's what it is, is all rage and I am having trouble with my marriage, taking care of day-to-day responsibilities, and controlling violent SI outbursts. I hope it is okay with you good folks if I join the community for support? Even if I'm just in a "temporary BP state"